March.

I did a lot of blogging this month I just realized. I should be shooken by the hand. Or patted on the back, or thumbs up given. All i know is im glad ive been sticking to this. I usually drop stuff like this as quickly and randomly as i start them. But they are still emo rants, and they could be more interesting.

Recent things i guess. Today my family started a freaking work out program. Three times a week. We'll see how long that lasts.

Im getting my hair done crazy tomorrow. Emo, just the 

way we like it. But im running out of opportunities to go crazy with it, and if it looks like crap, it will be easy to fix. Picture of a combination of these two pictures.

Dont judge me, i know you want to, but dont. Because i like the style, and i hope it looks alright on my head. and by combination, i mean the length of the bottom one, and the colors of the top one.... along with a skunk tail on the back right side of my hair. oh man, people are going to be pissed.

I go to the PostSecret convention on Wednesday. Im excited, I really think its going to be a cool experience. Hope all is well with you guys. Dont swear.

Anna

Friends come into my life at random times and for random reasons. Three years ago, i started stealing friends from my cousin Kate. It started from MSN Messenger. I got viperdawg's email address among a few others. I started talking to Anna summer of 06 and we were never anything more than friends of friends until somewhere around the end of 2007. We would mostly hang out with kate and danielle when we were around each other. I first realized she was out of her mind when she dressed up as a bandit to play guitar hero with danielle and chelsi at chelsi's boyfriend bens house. I thought she was crazy, but hilarious at the same time.

One of the next times i saw her was a guitar hero session in her basement. It was me anna danielle and probably annie. They would all go crazy when it was their turn with the guitar and then i got up and just played the song in a standing position. Right from the start anna encouraged me not to care about who is watching you and just go crazy. Ive always admired her for being her own individual person, someone who never lets the opinions of others get to her. Its something ive always struggled with and its something that annas always tried to help me with. Whenever im with anna i can be who i am and she never judges me....(with the exception of constructive criticism... done out of love)

Anna doesnt have a blog, but she should. She is honestly the funniest person ive ever known. Dont feel bad, shes impossible to compete with. She is the first to start everything. New words, fads, trends. Whatever she does, is praised and copied. It must get on her nerves but im jealous of her for that. I steal things from her all the time. The current phrase ive stolen from her is "Dont you know by now?" I say it way too much. I try hard to be as funny as her, but it never works. Proof of her sense of humor, the last thing she texted me tonight before she went to bed was, "In my prayer, i legitimately started saying thankful for wolves." Hahaha oh my freak i do love her so much.

I hope i do enough for her. I try being the friend that she needs but i feel like im either too mellow, to calm, or too quiet. When her and kate were like. one human being, she had someone to be completely crazy and out of her mind with. I feel like i hold her back, but im thankful im clinging to my personality rather than trying to completely be just like her hahaha. But i do love her and im so thankful to have her as a friend. Ever since i moved out into my own apartment she has come over honestly at LEAST once a week. I dont think we've missed a week of hanging out since summer. Moving out was tough at first, but her comic relief helped so much and the hilarious text after text after text always kept me company. Anna is the only person who, when hanging out, we can be doing absolutely nothing and still have a good night. A four hour car ride with her is more than pleasant because its always good crazy conversation. I hope she never ever ever loses her crazy out of her mind personality. Lil truth got to lay down them tracks afore she has them babies and that husban. If you ever meet her and come into contact with her, remind her to be safe. She's going to end up being mauled by her wolves in alaska if shes not careful :D   

Love you anna darling.

Snow

Ive had an obsession with snow since i can remember. Honestly ive always associated snow with my childhood and thats most likely the reason why I prefer winter to summer. It was snowing tonight on my way home from my parents house and I've just been freaking out that this is the last winter ill have here in utah for the next two years. I dont know why this effects me so much because its not a big deal at all. The look and feel of winter gives me good feelings. I hope so badly i get sent somewhere it snows during the winter. I dont care if i have to go to siberia or something like that just to get it. I want and i need snow.

Have any of you done the hyperspeed thing during a snowstorm while in your car? When i was younger and my dad was driving us through a blizzard he would say. "Alright kids, are you ready to go into hyperspeed?!" We would all huddle towards the middle of the car so we had a good view of the windshield. Right then, he would turn on his brights and it looks like it does on star wars or star trek when they go really really fast. Im guilty of doing this during snow storms.

I also find out that writing again keeps my mind very preoccupied and has been helping me out a lot. It keeps my mind stable and less emo. I even think my story is a pretty good idea, hopefully i finish this one. I didnt mean for my entries to become so boring and unplanned/unorganized. They've become an article for the angsty teen. I didnt intend this. Ill try to get more creative. Let me know whats going on in your life. Stay safe. 

AND. Im going to try my hardest to stop texting and driving. I do it. A lot. But its a selfish thing to do, no matter how safe I think im being.

Trying.

I've started writing again.

I want to send in a postcard to PostSecret.

Im going to the Post Secret presentation on April 1st.

Im going to the gym with my family every Monday Tuesday and Thursday starting tomorrow.

Im alright.

Be safe.

Yes, it was legit.

Ok. You have to understand, Im superstitious only because I'm hopeful. Hopeful that there are certain things in this world that can be controlled beyond what is seen as possible. I think that sentence needs revising, but i cant put my brain onto here. I saw a shooting star tonight. First thing that popped into my mind was "S***!" It really did scare me so bad because it was so huge. It looked more like an airplane than a shooting star. It was crazy because it like dissolved into lots of sparkling pieces as it entered the atmosphere, and I wanted to wish on it. I just freaking had to because i NEVER see legitimate shooting starts. I dont think meteor showers count. I stood there, and thought... I dont know what to wish for... I really couldnt. I didnt want my wish to be a prayer, you know like, "please bless me to come into great wealth" or "Please send me something that will bring more purpose in my life" i wanted it to be a WISH! The problem is, i havent wished on anything for so long. I used to wish to be able to have a super power when i blew out birthday candles haha all the way up until i was 10. Embarrassing. Anyways, I like to think i have a wish in reserve until im ready for a legitimate wish. Any suggestions?

I love you for reading these. Stay safe.

While.

Ok. Update i suppose. I finished the book Venemous. It was a good book. It was original, even though the climax was less than climactic, the main point was powerful. It was about a boy who had what he called "The Venom" Inside of him. He had a hard time controlling this inner monster whenever something makes him angry. Its self destructive, and effects everyone he cares about and its just about him dealing with it and trying to control it. Meh, i dont highly recommend it, mostly because it was more morbid than positive. And it drags on until like the 200th page. The other book i read on my way home was Hard Love. Its a story of this aspiring writer who meets this other writer who turns out to be a lesbian. They start out as friends, but he falls in love with her and the whole thing is exactly what the title says its, its about "hard love" It was another really good book though, Its funny, and the writing was quotable, so many good lines.

I picked up an application at Barnes and Noble! Im going to apply at borders too, but yeah, wel'll see.

Life is exactly the same for all of you wondering. But i did take more pictures. Im starting to think my style isnt branching out and everythings turning out the same. I dont know how to fix that. But if you want to see them then add me on facebook.

I hope life is good. Be safe.

Warm Air

I'm in Phoenix for the weekend because my cousin Skyl{er} (ar?) got home from his mission last Thursday. On the way down here I read one of my most favorite books for the third time. Its called Maybe. It sounds really emo and boring from how I'll describe it but if you love teen angst and you love dull comedy and raw emotion and struggle then this is the emo book for you. This kid brian lost his older brother in a car accident. He has a hard time coping with it, his whole family does I guess. So they move. Its about how he is struggling to find that center. The one where everything makes sense again once something has ruined the fabric of your being. He tries filling up the gaps of his life with things he thinks and hopes will make him happy again, some work, some don't. He's just really confused and hurt. Its just him trying to find a way to bring sense back into his life. Its a beautiful book and I plan on reading it on the way home again. After I finish this other book Venemous, im about half way done. its keeping my attention, but ill give you the full analysis later. This was boring. Im not even a book critic. But its just been a tough two days for me. Been down. Meh. I hope life is good for all of you. Be my friend. Be safe everyone.

Need New Things

I need things to start happening. No new stories to tell you. My apartment is still for sale... I still dont have a dog... Im still unemployed. I have a couple of pictures i took with Anna yesterday i suppose. And i drew a picture. I dont claim to be an artist by any stretch of a contemplated notion of any imagination, but it was just a nice afternoon.