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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

CYD!/Another Journal haha

Cyd had probably the most amazing two day long birthday anyone has ever known.  I went to the Miley Cyrus concert tonight (Cyd's real birthday) (Concert was good good good good good, me and missy are in love with her all over again and she loves us too.)


So anyways yesterday me and Anna and Cyd went to Topaz Mountain and we went on some amazing escapades. See Facebook for details, maybe I'll post some pictures on here, who knows. Anyways, it was way great. We ate food and hiked and climbed and hunted and pictured and we ambushed a ghost town. Then we went to the Santa Queen diner and ate food and played an arcade game or two and then we went on a mini long boarding adventure then we went to a golf course and ran around it was crazy. 

Then this morning! (Cyds REAL birthday) Me and Anna went and picked up Cyd to eat breakfast and we did and we ate and it was nice. Then I napped. Then we went to Trafalga and went mini-golfing. I won by two strokes. HA. then i went to MILEY then I met back up with cyd anna and brennen (Brennen is the new addition to our group of three, hes cool. We all like him) I ate cake and then took brennen home and we went on a mini longboarding ride and then got a drink then went home and here I am. BEST TWO DAYS EVER FOR CYDS BIRTHDAY!

He'res another funny journal entry haha

Journal #57 3/28/09

Hello Mutt! What up! I dont know what I should say to you! I'll try my best. But I think I may fail. Are you doing superfantasticuloulisticlyishious?! Because I am! You see, I went to bed at 10:30 last night. Like exactly, so I got exactly 8 1/2 hours of sleep! Can you believe that! It is a new record! I really have never fallen asleep MUTT! I just read the story of how you came to be "Mutt" & how I almost started to spell your name with one "T" instead of two t's. Good thing we went with the way I did. I couldn't see you being my Mutt any other way! Aly has a little cough. Poor Aly. I shall wish her my best. Hiram's Journal is named "Deshawn" But like Dashawn. Fastly said. Nahhmsayin!?! Tacy is texting me less frequently & it makes me sad. But its Chille. {I spelt Chill like Chille by accident I think thats funny hahaha} Miss Tuttle. Hiram told me to write Miss Tuttle. I dont want to though. Bye!

hahahaha ohhh man.
>Love you guys.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Real Life Journal


I've told you guys that one of the reasons I keep this blog is because I am not disciplined enough to habitually write in a real journal, but because I always get on the computer at night, it is easy for me to just post a quick blog every once in a while.


BUT HEY! GUESS WHAT! HERE COMES A REAL LIFE JOURNAL ENTRY! This is from my English class from my Senior year.

Journal #35

Yo! Mutt! What up! That's tight. Well man. OK! Here goes! Gavin's hair is going to look insane come 12:00 this afternoon. It will be crazzzy! <---- (Micky Mouse Looking) {the dot in the exclamation looks like mickey mouses ears and head} Anyways. Life is rad. You are rad. And school is rad. All the way yo! You know exactly how I speak. I dont know what I am saying. I'm very tired. OK! Now I am to write for real life. I'm just kind of chillin here. Oh yeah! I'm really close to getting my eagle! Yeah dog I know! Ok, I have to get my Pet, Photo, Radio, Astrology and some other merit badge and them I AM DONE FOR MY WHOLE LIFE! Yay! I know Mutt! Are you excited for me? THX! LOL! OMFGSH! WTF! Who do you think you are? Yeah you! I'm talking here! Geez. Holy freak calm yourself! I blame Hiram for all my misfortune. But thats chill. Because one day I will pummel him into the ground. JK. If this is used as evidence in some future case then it isn't true! I didn't do it! I'm innocent I tell you! But for real. I wont hurt him. I'm over it. He can make me misfortunate all that he ever wants. So now that I've cleared my name for the death of a certain Hiram Jacob. I am going to bid to you my farewell. I hope you have an excellent day my journalrific friend Mutt! You stay a good little journal until I see you again. Dont be hitting on too many other other journals while I'm gone!

There is one other entry that will just blow your mind as equally as I'm sure this one has. I hope you enjoyed.

I love Cyd. Shes prevented emotional breakdown one too many times and I'm lucky to have her in my life. I'm going up to Idaho next week! and im excited. How are you? Inform me.

Starting this blog post. I decided I am going to add one amazing picture in each of my blog posts. Ill give credit when I can find it. Love you guys.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I don't know.


I don't know how I have 19 followers.


I don't know what to keep writing in this blog.

I don't know how I keep my friends.

I don't know how to keep stability in my life. It always seems to fail and slip away.

I don't know why I'm always so emotional and why SOMETHING always seems to be going wrong.

I don't know how to fix ANYTHING.

I don't know which secrets of mine are valuable to me anymore. Or which I even consider secrets.

I don't know where I'm really headed.

I don't know know which I miss more. Being 16 or not having to worry about anything except going to High School.

I don't know what prompted me to post this.

I don't know what the freak is going on with anything.


Sunday, September 20, 2009

Freaking Dream.

I just woke up from an insanely lucid and real dream. It was so weird. I will describe from the beginning. As i remember.


It started when me and two girls were selected to go on a shopping spree at American Apparel with Tyra Banks. I couldnt really find much i wanted so i kind of watched the other two girls shop. One girl found a skirt thing that was like 60 dollars, and Tyra responded, "....ohhhhhhh. thats a little steep. I guess I'll still buy it for you."

So i guessed that 60 was our spending limit. I found a hoodie, V-neck thing. Grey. It was alright. So i got that.

Then we got back to our house and everybody freaked out asking us if it was fun and what we got. There were like 5 other guys there and im guessing (to keep things even) 6 girls. It was about that time that I realized i was on Americas Next top model. It was all normal to me. I got it, sat down on a couch, knew everybody's name. 

The next thing i remember was our first challenge. We had to act out a scene from a movie. All individually. My scene was from the Lion King and i had to act like my dad was just killed by that stampeed. I did a great job, i cried on cue and everyone clapped for me. Even tyra. After I finished, someone said something to tyra like, "Well this isnt extremely fair for all of us, Gavin played Jasper in twilight." Hahaha and then like, my dream acted like i was watching TV and it showed a clip of my performance on Twilight. I look sexy as a vampire.

Alright then the drama ensued. Top Model fills a good 15 minutes of drama. Let me tell you. The parents of one of the girls came to the house and got pissed at her for being on the show. She hadn't told her parents or something. We were all so curious as to what was going on, also so concerned. 

After that ended, we had ANOTHER challenge. Tyra stood before us and said, "I have papers in my hand... and pencils. When i tell you to start, you will run up here. Get a paper and pencil, and write who you think is going to win Americas Next.. Top... Model." So we all did and i was towards the end of the line and nobody said my name and then this one guy was like. "Now, I voted for this person, because of how i treated him at the beginning of this competition... The twilight kid." And everybody clapped, it was like i had won, but i only received one vote. But i remember IN MY DREAM I THOUGHT THIS Its ok that i only have one vote because its best to remain under the radar until the very end and then you just WIN! So then the episode ended and it showed clips from next week. It showed the girl getting yelled at by her dad and she responded by saying, NO! GAVIN LIED TO YOU! THATS NOT TRUE! haha it even wrote it in sub titles like they do sometimes. Well. yeah. that was my dream. hahaha

Perks.

I don't know how to do this. You know how i talked about how I am going to talk about the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower? Yeah I don't know if I'm capable of doing that task like, properly. Or even well. But here it goes.


Alright. To start off. Amazing book. To give you my general review of it. Its so real. The narrator of the book "Charlie" is such a unique and original character. He is so funny and innocent and just your favorite human in the world. He only wants the best for everyone and he just wants everything to be okay. 
"You know... a lot of kids at school hate their parents. Some of them got hit. And some of them got caught in the middle of wrong lives. Some of them were trophies for their parents to show the neighbors like ribbons or gold stars. And some of them just wanted to drink in peace."
The kid is a genius at 15. I normally don't like books where the kid you're supposed to relate to is so much more amazing then yourself. But you don't care because he is just so weird but just so great.

The book is basically letters written to someone. We don't know who they're to. He just needs someone to talk to, and he knows the person receiving them will listen.

I love how 'Charlie' analyzes everything and isn't afraid to behave how he feels. He wants people to like him, but if he acts just how he is in every social situation. And it works. He finds friends that love him and treat him great because of how he really is. He doesn't put on a show and try to impress. He is himself. Nobody else.

The writer of this book, Stephen Chbosky, is honestly amazing. He has charlie say such profound things but he puts it in the words of a crazy 15 year old.

This quote comes from while he is watching a football game with his friends.
"I look at the field, and i think about the boy who just made the touchdown. I think that these are the glory days for that boy, and this moment will just be another story someday because all the people who make touchdowns and home runs will become somebody's dad. And when his children look at his yearbook photograph, they will think that their dad was rugged and handsome and looked a lot happier than they are... I just hope I remember to tell my kids that they are as happy as I look in my old photographs. And I hope that they believe me."

Charlie has lost his aunt. He tells us that the loss of his aunt is the saddest thing to have ever happened to him and his family. He is constantly worried about his sister and always wants to help out his family. His worry and panic is rooted to something he cant quite figure out. He over analyzes his whole life.
"Its kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and you say your name. And it gets to a point where none of it seems real. Well, sometimes, I can do that, but I don't need an hour in front of a mirror. It happens very fast, and things start to slip away. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I cant. It doesn't happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me."
I love this quote because as lame as it sounds. This is exactly me. Back when i was 16-17 at least.

The thing I loved so much about this book is how it taught me how much I need to remember I love who I am and I need to focus so much on who I AM and not so much on how other perceive who I am. People will say things and do things and I'll react to them in ways that is expected of me. I don't want to be that person. I want to be and say the things I know and feel. That's why I love Charlie. He is the perfect example of keeping true to yourself. He knows who he is, and even though he may be on a quest to figure his life out and make the best of it, he never strays from himself... I hope that makes sense.
"I think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and then makes the choice to share it with other people. Maybe that is what makes people "participate." I'm not really certain. Because I don't know if I would mind living for Sam for a while. Then again, she wouldn't want me to, so maybe its a lot friendlier than all that. I hope so anyway."

He falls in love with a girl named Sam in the book. Charlie is a sensitive guy and he has never had any experiences with girls and he's just hilariously awkward about it all. You just have to read it, but he's just a good kid haha. 

Andddd another reason we love Charlie is because of this.
"I didn't feel like reading that night, so I went downstairs and watched a half-hour-long commercial that advertised an exercise machine. They kept flashing a 1-800 number, so I called it. The woman who picked up the other end of the phone was named Michelle. And i told Michelle that I was a kid and did not need an exercise machine, but I hoped she was having a good night... That's when Michelle hung up on me. And I didn't mind a bit."
Haaaaa oh man. 

I think I've quoted and talked enough for you to all get that you have no idea what the book is completely about, but you DO know that i loved this book so much. I know that books are supposed to make you feel connected with the story or the characters. But I honestly just connected with Charlie on so many levels that it killed me. I cried at the end of this book. The ONLY other time I've cried while reading is when i read my favorite book Maybe. (every single time i read it i cry. Its ridiculous)

Anyways. I don't know. Its really late, I'm really tired, I don't think i did this critique justice. I love this book. All i was trying to get across. ALSO there is a poem in this book that is crazy good, but depressing, so ill save it for later for an emo post hahahaha wink.

"I think that the only perspective is to really be there... Because it's okay to feel things. And be who you are about them."

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Cant think.

I had such a great purpose about what i was going to blog about tonight.


I got in my car and i was sitting there thinking about life and crap and I really got the best idea of what to hurry and blog about tonight so i wouldnt forget it. And i got home, facebooked, and forgot what i was going to talk about. Universe. Geez

Im sick again though, I just barely got over strep and its pissing me off. I take vitamins regularly and this happens! Jonas Brothers are retarded. Are Kristen Stuart and Rob Pattinson really engaged? If they are i think its fake and if its not fake i think theyre retarded and if theyre not retarded then i think them getting married is retarded.

I'm writing again, and it makes me happy, so thats new. AWKERHNWERK WHY CANT I REMEMBER WHAT I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT!

Freaking, ill try to think of it while im at school tomorrow.

My next entry will be about the book i last read. INNN DEPTTHH! dun dun dun. it was easily my second favorite book of all time.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

What theeeee.

Bit my thumbnail off. Its september. What exactly do I have to show for myself now? Alright. Ok. Yeah i need to start some mini projects. I need to take more pictures, buy a new computer, organize my room, i dont know. I should just be more productive and actually do things that I want to be doing. I was just SO self disciplined a year ago and now I'm falling apart.


Someone help.

I guess I just need to get like. Habitual again. Hahaha I used to not like saying habitual because it sounds like the word bi*** is in it. Same with Obituaries. haha

Well yeah. Im almost done with this small video project thing that I did. I dont know how I could ever make it 100% done because there's just so much i could do with it but its just crazy. I dont know. I hope it turns out in the end and I hope i force myself to just spend a day with it. Ill post it on here if it will fit. The file is like 15 GB right now. Freaking

Well yeah. I need to just be more productive. I need to be more cool. Im going to give a shout out to my friend Drew who should blog more. I love her blog more than anything. I cant remember what her blog is so just look for her in my followers list. Shes so funny, so smart, and i want to be cool like her.

Youre cool. Rock it, try it, be it.