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Sunday, July 26, 2009

Yup. New blog happening.

I have to start a new blog. Too many things. I love you mom hahaha. 


I think ill keep blogging on this though. Put some stuff of every once in a while. This blog has practically been a journal to me.

Ill tell the people i want to know about my new blog the new url. But yeah, it will probably happen by the time i get home from idaho this friday or saturday.

I loved spending tonight with my family. When i got home though... its interesting how drama... will not leave me. I thought tonight was perfect until i got home tonight. It totally flipped 180.

man.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Well. Pioneer Day.

I'm not consistent at all anymore.


I'm still struggling with dumb stuff. But Pioneer day was today hooray.

Cyd let me spend it with her and I was happy. We went to the parade and went to the park and watched gospel singers sing about Church things and such. We cheered and sang along. 

Then i drove back home and showered and then drove back to cyds. Then we watched tv with Kate and then got cotton candy and wingers and then i drove back to my apartment and tried to fall asleep while cyd worked.

Then i came back at 8 and we met up with Drew Kate Annie and Duncan and we watched the fireworks and fought each other and hurt each other. Then people bled and we got cheese cake and del taco and went back to my apartment. They attacked everything and tore up magazines and i just was like whaaaatttt. 

Now im home. it was a fun night. I really liked it.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Cleannn

Cleaned my apartment. I think I might get a new blog, I feel way too monitored on this blog haha. No offense mother.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

I WILL

I am going to get a job, im going to start waking up early, im going to register for classes. I am going to do it and i will have THEM ALL DONE by the time school starts. EVEN IF I HAVE TO GO BACK TO MAGLEBYS I WILL HAVE A JOB BY SEPTEMBER!!!!


Well here is the other thing. I am working on a miniature project to keep me occupied. Its every single picture i can compile that i have taken over the past 3 years put into a video that is 10 minutes. It sounds like, boring, but it really does make your brain like, dissolve. I need to dig up more pictures and then im going to organize them and stuff and it should be cool! 

I just have to start becoming more productive. Going to the pool every day and sleeping in until 10 or 11 is getting sick.

Friday, July 17, 2009

It's Back

Well not many of you gave me feedback as to what I can do to improve my blog, so I'm just going to have to get better at it all alone.


Today started out pretty rough. YAY EMO GAVIN IS BACK IN THE GAME! It just sucks. But its ok. Everything works out and in the end, I'm happy about it.... -- that makes zero sense to everyone.

-Mom, dont freak out that I'm saying this and don't get mad at me!-

Its hard for me to really get out everything that I want to via this blog, because my mom reads every single one. But we're just going to pretend that she isn't here right now.

Very few people know this, but its been long enough that its ok i guess, I don't think ill be judged too much. I see a therapist once a week. Ever since early April. I decided to get a therapist all on my own, I wasn't forced or asked to get one, it was a decision I made for me. In my opinion, therapy helps. I feel... insane at times knowing i see a therapist once a week, but at the same time, I feel like she helps. There's some stuff going on in my life that my parents need the professional view of...relating to my life. HA I'm struggling to make sense tonight. But they are meeting with them next week sometime and hopefully some things are cleared up to them. I hate that they have to worry about me, and I hate how psycologically --it says I spelled that wrong-- screwed up I am. I cant fix myself and I don't know why. DONT FREAK OUT MOM I REALLY AM NOT LIKE MANICALLY DEPRESSED OR ANYTHING! It probably looks like it, but I'm not. Im just waiting for my brain to fix.

I should probably blog more. I like it.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Two Freaking Birds.

These are ALL the pictures taken on my New Jersey trip. Also, the music being played is the wonderful song you've all been hearing about created by Brian and I.


Its probably boring, so uh. yeah.


Saturday, July 4, 2009

Very Sorry

Im sorry i get all mysteriously annoyingly emo on this all the time. I have freaking followers now and I feel like people are going to stop following if i dont get interesting really quick. I know i promised pictures in this post but im too tired.


I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who made my day great today. You all know who you are. Im going through some rough stuff. And you all made me forget about it all day. So thank you.

To pay you back. my next post is going to be full of happiness and goodness and fun happy good things. Now. I dont know who REALLY reads this blog. But if you read this, could you leave me a comment telling me how i can improve my blog. Things that bore you that i write, things that you like. I just want to get better at this. 

Thanks again for the good day my friends. You really are so important to me and its days like this that I will never take you for granted.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Gah

Today was tough. So much just. Ah.


Pictures from my trip tomorrow.