I would have posted this yesterday but I was too tired at the end of the night to even really use my computer much. But everyone just let it be known that Saturday, December 26th 2009, was one of the best days I've had in such a long time. Like, SUCHHHH a long freaking time. (Up until like 2 in the morning, but that technically was the 27th so it doesn't count) I just thought I would declare to anyone reading these things that I don't have depressing days every single day. Hahaha you're all amazing and I hope you are all happy.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Ctrmsahmis!
Well today was Christmas. If you would like to take a moment and read the blog I posted a year ago today, I mean, you can. If you do, you'll be very confused. Because last Christmas I kept saying sad things that it was my last Christmas for two years and it was just perfect and so sad blah. Well yeah, you will obviously see that I am still around wont you. Because of that, it was a strange Christmas for me.
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Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Cry Fest
I'm aware that my last post is all about me staying happy, I'm doing an okay job, but you know, I think the issue is I'm too emotional of a person to be happy all the time. So when I go on a happy streak, I have a break down. There has to be some sort of regulation as to my emotional balances. Because I'm getting annoyed.
Posted by Gavin at 1:25 AM 3 comments
Monday, December 7, 2009
Just Realized
It took me a long time, but I've finally done it. Well, for the time being I've done it. But hopefully I remember that what I am thinking right at this very second is true, and that there are NO variables that come into conflict with this.
Posted by Gavin at 4:07 AM 1 comments
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
June
I did a stupid thing tonight. I do stupid things every night though. I was having a pretty bad day all day and I knew it was going to get worse tonight but I decided to be an idiot and make it even worse and harder for me. I'm starting to think that I actually enjoy being depressed. There's no other explanation for why I cant just stop. The stupid thing I did was remind myself of the past. from like, march to june specifically. I'm sorry that this really is what this blog has turned into. I have no other outlet and I might as well document how I'm really feeling.
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Sunday, November 29, 2009
Made it This Far.
I started this blog almost exactly a year ago and I've spent 100 nights of this year thinking of things to post. Actually I never really had to think of what I'd post because being an emotional person decides for you. I am thankful for this blog though because it really does help me organize all the drama that my mind unnecessarily forces into my life. It also is nice to know that I have a few habitual readers. So thank you guys.
Are you scared of cockroaches: Nope. I think its cool how they will not die.
Do you get scared in the dark? I used to. Like insanely. I couldn't fall asleep without the TV on or I wouldn't be able to get to sleep.
What is your favorite day of the week: Sunday
Your dream car: I love Doris, but I've always kind of wanted a Jeep or a Volvo. I'm not too into cars though.
Your dream vacation: Europe. Happening this May. Even though its like. school too I guess.
In your next birth, you would love to be: I...am not this religion. Whichever it is.
In your past birth, you must have been: Uh.... OH! like im guessing! ok uh... I must have been some sort of disturbed plant or animal.
Your favorite pizza topping is: Cheese. Sometimes BBQ Chicken.
How many kids do you want to have? 2 or 3.
Last TV channel you watched: Disney Channel. If any of you say anything negative about this ill find you.
What are you wearing right now? Scrubs i stole from surgery.
What do you wear at night in bed? ...The scrubs i stole from surgery.
Your favorite toy in childhood: This weird dinosaur plush doll that made the funniest noise when you squeezed it. Haha I haven't thought about that weird dinosaur forever.
How many teeth do you have? What the freak? A full set I guess. Minus my wisdom teeth.
When did you last visit the dentist? 6 months ago about. I should go again soon.
Which toothpaste do you use? : Uh, its orange. Its that foamy orange kind. Ugh, im too lazy to get up and read it. But its orange and foamy and the best.
Your preferred toilet paper brand : I used too. Then I moved out and only cared about cheap things when I grocery shop ha.
Three things you can do: Walk, Talk, Mop.
If you had one person to take with you on a deserted island, it would be?: Dont know.
Your dream celebrity date: Hahaha
Do you believe in aliens? : Not really. But I swear I saw some crazy unidentified object one night in flagstaff AZ. It made me consider it haha.
Do you believe in ghosts and such? Ghosts, meh. Spirits yeah. Same thing?
Favorite cocktail : Shrimp.
Favorite fruit : Applessss
Favorite flower : Sunflower
Have you puked at a party? Nooo.
You would love to get a tattoo done on your: on my NEVER!
Have you pretended to be sick to avoid someone or some meeting? : Yeah thats a dumb question every single human has.
Do you cry easily? No. But I've been crying a lot lately.
Do you swear a lot? Not a lot, just socially, at parties....(ellen joke)
Favorite body part in the opposite sex : Eyes. and Hair.
Corniest pickup line used by you on someone : I don't think I've ever used an actual pickup line.
Corniest pickup line someone used on you : My friends dared me to come over here and talk to you. So I had to. (not really corny, but freaking weird i think)
Have you ever been in love : I only know I've been in love once. I would doubt myself that it was actually me being in love or just me thinking I was in love, but I've never been in more emotional stress in my life because of it.
Have you ever been caught in an embarrassing situation by your parents? : Hahaha I think the most embarrassing thing ive been caught doing is like, making some weird video with Berkeley and Michael when we were 12. We probably had weird stuff on our face or something stupid like that.
The food you hate to eat : Most fishy foods.
Your favorite breakfast cereal : Oh's or Golden Ghrams.. Grahms? Gramhssdse
Do you have any pets? : A cat at home. Cricket.
If yes, describe your pets : Long black hair. Tons of hair. Stubborn and so freaking annoying.
Which is your favorite holiday? : Christmas for sure.
Have you ever been drunk out of your mind? : No.
Ever been in a car accident? : three. but only one was my fault. and it was technically mckenzies fault. hahaha.
The boy band you secretly listen to : Most the bands I listen to have only boys in them? Stupid freaking survey.
The body part you would love to get pierced : None.
When did you last diet to lose weight? : Never. I've wanted to gain weight since I was 16.
What is the first thing you do in the morning when you wake up?: Get pissed and shower.
Do you read newspapers or books in the toilet? : Hahahaha no. But I will send an occasional text or two.
Are you in love with someone these days? : already asked this question stupid.
Would you date a hottie who is totally dumb? : No i dont think so.
Has anyone slapped you on the face? : HAHAHA yes! three of my friends. All three were legit times too. Berkeley's was the funniest.
What is the color of the underwear you are wearing? : Dark Blue....have you ever been alone in a crowded room? I say the world could be swimming till theres nothing but dark blueeeeee.
Which is your favorite underwear brand? : Hanes and Paul Frank.
What is your favorite denim brand? : I do not wear denim.
If you could afford a fashion designer, it would be : Seven or Diesl.
Your first cell phone was : This smalllll thing. I miss that phone.
Do you prefer to text or talk on the phone? : Talk to people I love. Text people I dont.
Are you a sensitive person? : Ex-freaking-tremely.
Would you go for a one night stand? : We need a mormon version of this survey.
The romantic movie you like most : I like Notting Hill. But I'm not a huge fan of most romantic movies.
The action movie you like most : I dont know ha.
Do you believe in heaven and hell? : Yeah.
Which is your most memorable trip with friends? : Trip to St. George with Cyd and Anna or my trip to Florida with Missy and Allie or my trip to Jersey to hang out with Brian.
Which newspaper do you read daily? : msn.com
The magazines you like to read : Ones in lines. People is as interesting as it gets.
Your first job was : Magleby's
Did you have a best friend in school? : Kelsea! Then again shes like my only friend at school.
Which email service do you use most? : hotmail.com!
Have you ever walked to save money? : nope.
Where do you shop for clothes? : Forever 21. Urban Outfitters. Nordstrom.
What was your pocket money as a kid? : the age you were. per week.
Can you talk to someone for long hours on the phone? : Yeah, a couple of people.
Do you like taking stupid surveys like these? : No but I did it for the sake of my boring blog.
If yes, do you have too much free time? : Why did my answer have to be yes? I Still have too much free time.
One memory you wish you could erase : A few. Not sure why this survey thinks I would just tell you.
Any sport, you are really good at : I'm way good at Ping Pong somehow. And Long/Snowboarding.
In your purse, you keep a photo of : No purse. Wallet. Movie Stubs and hotel keys.
Do you take any medicine daily? : Just two vitamins.
Have you ever lied about your age? : No. Ive never needed to.
The last person you kissed was : My phone.
The last country you visited : Mexico.
Do you need music while you are studying? : Yes. Its not possible unless I listen to it I promise.
A song you loved as a kid : the Bicycle song by Queen. And Baby Baby by Amy Grant :)
Any kiddie song you still remember : There was this song about this dog that was on this movie that scares the crap out of me to think about.
Habits you hate in others : Eating food weird. And breathing weird.
On a scale of one to ten how obnoxious is this survey? : SO FREAKING! But I've endured worse. So I'll give you a 9.
One habit of yours, you wish you could change?: Staying up too late.
Do you brush twice a day? : Yup. I'm a freak about my mouth.
How much time do you take to get ready in the morning? : Half hour. Shocked? You should be.
Are you a day person or a night person? : Night. Night night night ill kill the morning.
Your favorite cartoon character : Spongebob or Dori.
Have you made a complete fool of yourself anytime? : This is retarded of course i have.
Any word or sentence you repeat often : "Hahaha"
Describe your computer monitor : Picture of me cyd and anna at Topaz Mountain.
One book you are dying to read: Tuesdays with Mauri. However you spell maurri.
One movie you are dying to see : I'm excited for Alice in Wonderland.
One music album you are dying to hear : Relient K. It came out forever ago but i keep putting off buying it.
How much time did you take to complete this survey? : Wow. Between facebook chatting and answering these questions it did take me 40 minutes. thats sad.
Posted by Gavin at 11:27 PM 6 comments
Sunday, November 22, 2009
The Times
I noticed tonight that the things and decisions I make are shaping the good old days of my life. One day I will look back on the things that I am currently doing and I will be like, huh. I don't know if that 'huh' is a good 'huh' or a bad 'huh' as of now, because I feel like the activities that I occupy my free time with are good things. I believe that I'm trying to direct myself down a path that I'm happiest with. I could be wrong though. I probably am.
Posted by Gavin at 2:33 AM 3 comments
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Shouting Outing.
I have to give a quick shout out to my Aunt Wendy for being an amazing aunt/person. She came to visit for the week and I didn't get to see her much but I'm thankful for all the love and support she gives me.
Posted by Gavin at 11:53 PM 2 comments
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Sad AND Pathetic
There is a fine line between being sad, and being pathetic. I have come to the conclusion that this line is not a real line to me. Because I am clearly both.
Posted by Gavin at 1:07 AM 5 comments
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Easily the Craziest Dream of my Life.
I had the longest continuing dream I think i have ever had in my life last night. Usually the scene changes and the point of everything is lost and it becomes silly or scary or whatever. But this dream stayed exactly the same and it was the closest thing to being in a movie and it was cool. Kelsea keeps a dream journal so i figured one that i remembered so clearly would be a good one to document.
Posted by Gavin at 10:52 AM 1 comments
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Emo Pic. Hallo
I know I already give anyone who reads this enough proof to be convinced of how Emo I am, and this picture isn't helping at all, but i saw it and I gave a FOR REAL laugh. I know.
Posted by Gavin at 11:53 AM 1 comments
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Snow
Every year ever since I can remember I would record the day that it first snowed every year. I love it when it finally starts to snow. It's the best day when it finally snowed.
Posted by Gavin at 1:35 AM 1 comments
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Yeah freaking I'll be Infrequent.
Ha, I was complaining about how none of you are blogging and its been a long time since I have. And NONE OF YOU CARED. Geez. haha well I'm feeling better about a lot of things right now. I know you were all wondering. ha
Posted by Gavin at 11:26 PM 1 comments
Monday, October 5, 2009
Keeps happening.
I dont know how or why this ALWAYS keeps happening, but I always end up feeling sad about this one thing. This one thing thats been in my head since the beginning of summer and this one thing that I needed to move on from by the end of summer. I keep thinking I've finally moved on and gotten over it, but I feel like it keeps coming back in my head and I dont know how to stop it. DONT PANIC EVERYONE ITS NOT SOMETHING AWFUL AND SINFUL AND DEATH AND EMO. Its just this one thing. And its so dumb that I cant get past it.
Posted by Gavin at 12:05 AM 4 comments
Saturday, October 3, 2009
What is going on.
I figure that people are discovering that there is more that they can do with their time instead of blogging about seemingly pointless things. But you guys are seriously slacking lately with blog posts. I need to follow new people or something because you guys are seriously boring me.
Posted by Gavin at 1:21 AM 4 comments
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
CYD!/Another Journal haha
Cyd had probably the most amazing two day long birthday anyone has ever known. I went to the Miley Cyrus concert tonight (Cyd's real birthday) (Concert was good good good good good, me and missy are in love with her all over again and she loves us too.)
Posted by Gavin at 12:40 AM 1 comments
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Real Life Journal
I've told you guys that one of the reasons I keep this blog is because I am not disciplined enough to habitually write in a real journal, but because I always get on the computer at night, it is easy for me to just post a quick blog every once in a while.
Posted by Gavin at 11:13 PM 2 comments
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I don't know.
I don't know how I have 19 followers.
Posted by Gavin at 1:03 AM 1 comments
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Freaking Dream.
I just woke up from an insanely lucid and real dream. It was so weird. I will describe from the beginning. As i remember.
Posted by Gavin at 10:35 AM 3 comments
Perks.
I don't know how to do this. You know how i talked about how I am going to talk about the book The Perks of Being a Wallflower? Yeah I don't know if I'm capable of doing that task like, properly. Or even well. But here it goes.
Alright. To start off. Amazing book. To give you my general review of it. Its so real. The narrator of the book "Charlie" is such a unique and original character. He is so funny and innocent and just your favorite human in the world. He only wants the best for everyone and he just wants everything to be okay.
Posted by Gavin at 2:21 AM 3 comments
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Cant think.
I had such a great purpose about what i was going to blog about tonight.
Posted by Gavin at 11:27 PM 0 comments
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
What theeeee.
Bit my thumbnail off. Its september. What exactly do I have to show for myself now? Alright. Ok. Yeah i need to start some mini projects. I need to take more pictures, buy a new computer, organize my room, i dont know. I should just be more productive and actually do things that I want to be doing. I was just SO self disciplined a year ago and now I'm falling apart.
Posted by Gavin at 12:20 AM 2 comments
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Here we are thumbnail.
Its going to happen. I haven't decided when. But I know I'm going to do it. The small spot on my thumbnail is going to be bitten off soon. Dont make fun of me because I know you really want to. But I really am hesitant to bite it off.
Posted by Gavin at 9:18 PM 2 comments
Thursday, August 27, 2009
My Right Thumb Nail
I bite my nails. Missy says I sometimes bite my nails so low if a camera took a picture of just my hands, people would identify them as frodo baggins hands. Its probably true. Anyways.
Posted by Gavin at 12:54 AM 2 comments
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Whaaaaa?!?!
Yeah. I lied I guess. I'm too lazy to make a new blog right now, so I'm posting something new here!
Posted by Gavin at 11:24 PM 5 comments
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Hm..
Well. Im thinking this is my last post on this blog for a while. I'm having trouble coming to terms with a lot of things and like, feeling peaceful about the way my life is. I feel like I cant stop myself from struggling. The last time i felt like, completely OK with my life was.... the second week in june. Hahaha. wow. thats extreeeemely pathetic that I actually know that. Hmm. Its weird to think about.. I remember exactly like, exactly how my life was at that time, and there is NOTHING different about my life right now than it was then. I mean things have changed. But on a personal level. Nothing.. for me has changed...
Posted by Gavin at 12:15 AM 2 comments
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Yup. New blog happening.
I have to start a new blog. Too many things. I love you mom hahaha.
Posted by Gavin at 11:32 PM 0 comments
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Well. Pioneer Day.
I'm not consistent at all anymore.
Posted by Gavin at 12:02 AM 2 comments
Monday, July 20, 2009
Cleannn
Cleaned my apartment. I think I might get a new blog, I feel way too monitored on this blog haha. No offense mother.
Posted by Gavin at 9:04 PM 2 comments
Sunday, July 19, 2009
I WILL
I am going to get a job, im going to start waking up early, im going to register for classes. I am going to do it and i will have THEM ALL DONE by the time school starts. EVEN IF I HAVE TO GO BACK TO MAGLEBYS I WILL HAVE A JOB BY SEPTEMBER!!!!
Posted by Gavin at 3:01 PM 1 comments
Friday, July 17, 2009
It's Back
Well not many of you gave me feedback as to what I can do to improve my blog, so I'm just going to have to get better at it all alone.
Posted by Gavin at 1:00 AM 4 comments
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Two Freaking Birds.
These are ALL the pictures taken on my New Jersey trip. Also, the music being played is the wonderful song you've all been hearing about created by Brian and I.
Posted by Gavin at 10:39 PM 1 comments
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Very Sorry
Im sorry i get all mysteriously annoyingly emo on this all the time. I have freaking followers now and I feel like people are going to stop following if i dont get interesting really quick. I know i promised pictures in this post but im too tired.
Posted by Gavin at 1:09 AM 4 comments
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Gah
Today was tough. So much just. Ah.
Posted by Gavin at 11:55 PM 0 comments
Sunday, June 28, 2009
DAY 13! END OF TRIP!
IM HOME! I have made it home. I had a good day of traveling and i just made it home and life is just good today for right now and its good.
Posted by Gavin at 10:57 PM 1 comments
Day 12
Last full day of my trip!!!! Going home tomorrow. Freak. Yes.
Posted by Gavin at 12:47 AM 1 comments
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Day 11
Eleven days, 5 states. Its been a long vacation.
Posted by Gavin at 12:44 AM 1 comments
Friday, June 26, 2009
Day 10
I dont care that these titles are boring. Ive started a cycle and im going to finish it.
Posted by Gavin at 12:22 AM 1 comments
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Day 9
First full day in San Diego. I got, so much sleep. I needed it. I would not have made it through the day. Reagan wasnt feeling well so we slept in for a while. I got in a full 12 hours. ha
Posted by Gavin at 10:39 PM 1 comments
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Day 8
Longest. Day.
Posted by Gavin at 9:32 PM 3 comments
Monday, June 22, 2009
Day 7
Well today was my last day in Jersey. it has been a full trip. Im ready to move on with this crazy vacation, but i will miss it here. It really was one of my most favorite trips of all time. Today was simple, but fun and it was good too.
Posted by Gavin at 10:14 PM 2 comments
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Day 6
I should probably start making the titles of these a little more interesting because i dont know what would prompt people to read these if they were just one of a bunch of numbers.
Posted by Gavin at 10:07 PM 0 comments
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Day 5
Fireflies. My life is complete. I did this one thing on facebook like in December and one of my 25 things was that one of my biggest goals was to write a song so i could put it on Myspace. Its not done yet, but me and Brian are about half way done with a dang good song. I really think its legitimately good. But we did a cover to White Horse by Taylor Swift and its super good. Alright anyways. Here is what was done today.
Posted by Gavin at 9:58 PM 2 comments
Friday, June 19, 2009
Day 4
Four days so far. I'm adjusting to this life over here so well. I honestly love, the freaking, crap out of it here. Its like quaint, but not. The landscape. freaking i could go on walks for hours at a time. Its so green and if i didnt know where i was, id think i was in washington. Its been overcast and drizzly ever since ive been here, but i dont mind at all.
Posted by Gavin at 8:45 PM 2 comments
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Day 3.
Alrighty. Im falling in love with life over here. Its great because life is good, but it sucks because I'll have to leave soon, and im not looking forward to that.
Posted by Gavin at 10:58 PM 1 comments
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Day 2.
Today was scheduled to be Six Flags day. My Utah brain called it Seven Peaks day the whole day. I had a Six Flags day though. The Intercoms all over the place were telling us to have a "Six Flags Day" I think they were trying to brainwash us into replacing the words "Fun"/"Great"/"Happy" with "Six Flags" from our brains..
Posted by Gavin at 9:40 PM 3 comments